Episode 29 - Abundance as Rebellion

Leaving a high-demand system like Mormonism often leaves us with an unexpected residue — a deep, body-level sense of scarcity. Scarcity of time. Scarcity of worth. Scarcity of permission. Scarcity of possibility.

In today’s episode, we explore what it means to practice abundance as an act of rebellion. We look at how Claude Monet — yes, the Monet of water lilies and gardens — refused to let grief, loss, or tradition confine him. Instead, he expanded. He painted obsessively, repetitively, and on a scale that defied every expectation of what a “proper” painting should be. His art became a declaration of abundance: “I will not stay small. I will not be limited. I will create more.” After leaving the church, many of us feel “too late,” “too behind,” or “too broken” to begin again. But abundance isn’t about money or perfection — it’s about choosing expansion over contraction. It’s about reclaiming the parts of you that were muted, doubted, or dismissed. It’s about refusing to let your pain be the final author of your life.

In this episode, you’ll learn: Why scarcity wiring runs so deep after a high-control environment

How to identify when “I’m not enough” is actually conditioning talking

What Monet can teach us about devotion, repetition, and creative expansion

How abundance becomes an internal stance, not an external circumstance

Why embracing beauty, pleasure, and creativity is rebellious for women raised in patriarchy

The small, daily shifts that open you to receiving more — more joy, more possibility, more self-trust

We also talk about the surprising truth: abundance isn’t something you wait to feel. It’s something you practice your way into. Just like Monet did.

If anxiety or old conditioning still pulls you into fear or scarcity, download my free Anxiety-Reducing Art Exercises — three simple creative practices to help your body soften and your mind reconnect with possibility. These practices are the first step toward the abundant, spacious life waiting for you.