Mormon to Muse

Identity Loss After Leaving the Mormon Church - You Were Never Just a Calling

 

On losing yourself slowly — and what it actually looks like to come back.

I was maybe two years out of the church when it happened. I was standing in an art supply store — already a strange experience, because buying things purely for my own pleasure still felt vaguely transgressive — and th

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What Resentment is Trying to Tell You

 

If you've been feeling resentful and then immediately judging yourself for it — this is for you.

There was a season of my life where I felt low-grade resentment almost all the time. Nothing dramatic was happening. On the outside everything looked fine. But internally I felt tight, irritated, and...

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The Hardest Part of Parenting Isn't What You Think

 

Most parents believe their job is to manage their child’s behavior.

Teach them the right rules.
Correct their mistakes.
Protect them from pain.
Make sure they grow into stable, successful adults.

But that’s not actually the hardest part of parenting.

The hardest part of parenting is managing your...

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The Truth About Awakening

 

The Truth About Awakening: Why Healing Doesn’t Make You Feel Better (and Why It’s Still Worth It)

Most people pursue healing, awakening, or transformation because they believe it will make them feel better.

They imagine peace. Relief. Stability. They imagine that once they’ve done enough work—p...

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Doubt Is Not the Enemy. It Is the Beginning.

Doubt has been framed as something to overcome. Something to resolve quickly. Something that stands between you and clarity.

But doubt is not the opposite of creativity.

It is the beginning of it.

Creativity requires uncertainty. It requires the willingness to enter a space where th

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Flow state isn't a luxury - it's a human need

 

 

What Flow Actually Is

Flow is a state of deep absorption where action and awareness merge.
Time distorts. Self-consciousness quiets. Effort feels purposeful rather than draining.

Neuroscientifically, flow is associated with reduced activity in the prefrontal cortex — the part of the brain res...

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Feminine vs. Masculine Spirituality: Why Self-Suppression Was Never the Path for Women

 

For much of history, spirituality has been defined through a masculine lens.

Not because men are more spiritual—but because the people with power were the ones writing the rules.

Masculine spirituality has been shaped around hierarchy, obedience, endurance, and self-denial. It rewards restraint...

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Audacity over Permission

Episode 36 – Audacity
Stop Waiting to Be Chosen

Many of us weren’t taught to trust our inner authority—we were taught to wait for it to be assigned.
Audacity is the moment you stop waiting for the call and start responding to yourself.

What Audacity Actually Is (and Isn’t)

Audacity isn’t arroganc...

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Creating During Chaos

 

Every time the world feels like it’s unraveling, a familiar idea resurfaces:

Now is not the time for creativity.

It can sound responsible. Mature. Moral, even.
When there is suffering, violence, injustice, or uncertainty, making art can feel frivolous—or worse, selfish.

I understand why that th...

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Why I hate self care

 

Does Self-Care Feel Like Another Thing You’re Failing At?

If self-care has started to feel like another obligation you’re not doing well enough, I have good news for you:
the problem isn’t you — it’s the way self-care has been defined.

That might sound dramatic. And to be clear, I don’t hate car...

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Goals Without Anxiety: A Different Way to Move Forward

 

If the idea of setting goals fills you with tension instead of motivation, you’re not broken — and you’re not failing at “mindset.”

For many women, especially those who were raised in high-demand systems like Mormonism, goals were never neutral. They were loaded with pressure, worthiness, compar...

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What a “Better Life” After Mormonism Actually Means

 

One of the hardest things after leaving Mormonism isn’t figuring out what you believe.

It’s learning how to tell when a choice is actually yours.

I use the phrase “creating a better life than the one you had in Mormonism” a lot—and lately I’ve realized it needs more nuance than it sometimes get...

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