Mormon to Muse

Mormon to Muse

Hosted by: Kristin Martineau

You didn't lose your faith. You found out something true — and now you're figuring out who you are on the other side. Mormon to Muse is a podcast for women navigating life after the Mormon church — the faith...

Episodes

The Number One Mistake I See Women Who Leave The Church and How to Fix It

Season #1

You know you don't have to do what everyone else wants anymore. So why is it still so hard to figure out what you want? If you left the Mormon church and you're still second-guessing every decision, still scanning...
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What Is Eros Energy? Reclaiming Your Aliveness After Leaving the Mormon Church

Season #1

I spent years experiencing my own aliveness as a problem to manage. I was a mother of young kids, restless out of my mind, bored without intellectual stimulation — and certain something was wrong with me for wanting...
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The Manual You Didn't Write: Why Other People's Behavior Isn't the Problem and How to Reclaim Your Peace After the Church

Season #1

We don't usually realize it, but most of us are carrying an unwritten rulebook about how the people around us should behave so that we can feel okay. Brooke Castillo calls it a manual, and in this episode I unpack why...
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The Midlife Trifecta: When Faith Identity and Body Shift All at Once

Season #1

If you're somewhere in your forties and it feels like everything is coming apart at the same time — your faith, your body, your sense of who you are — you're not broken. You're in the midlife trifecta: faith...
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You Were Never Unworthy: How Unconditional Positive Regard Heals the Damage of Mormon Worthiness Culture

Season #1

What if the system that claimed to be making you good was actually the thing standing in the way? In this episode we go deep on one of the most important distinctions for women rebuilding after Mormonism — the...
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You Can Trust Your Feelings Again: Emotional Literacy, Embodiment, and Self-Trust After Faith Transition

Season #1

Download the 7 Day Reclamation Sketchbook There is a feeling you know very well. You felt it in sacrament meeting, reading scripture, bearing your testimony. It was warm. It was certain. It felt like coming home to...
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The Sinfulness of Selfhood: Why Differentiation Feels Dangerous After Mormonism

Season #1

Episode 51: The Sinfulness of Selfhood: Why Differentiation Feels Dangerous After Mormonism There is a word the church uses for a woman who trusts her own mind over the institution. The word is proud. There is a word...
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Why You Can't Say No: How the Mormon Church Hijacks Consent

Season #1

It wasn't until I was in my thirties that I really understood what consent meant. I knew the word. I could have given you a definition. But the actual lived understanding of it — what it means to check in with...
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You Know More Than You Think: Rebuilding Self-Trust and Inner Authority After the Mormon Church

Season #1

You've said it a hundred times. About what you want, who you are now, what comes next. I don't know. And it feels true — honest, even. But what if "I don't know" isn't always a fact? What if sometimes it's a thought...
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The Loop — How High-Control Religion Uses Shame to Keep You Coming Back

Season #1

Mormonism didn't just teach you to feel shame. It built a system where being human was the problem — and the church was the only solution. In this episode, Kristin breaks down exactly how that system works: how...
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Beyond the Rulebook: How to Build a Values-Driven Life After the Mormon Church

Season #1

What do you do with your conscience when the institution that claimed to own it is gone? This episode is about one of the most disorienting parts of leaving — not the grief, not the social fallout, but the quiet,...
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After Mormonism: How to Rebuild Your Identity When You Don't Know Who You Are Anymore

Season #1

There's a particular kind of silence that happens after everything collapses and before anything new has taken shape. You're not who you were. You're not yet who you're becoming. And nobody around you quite...
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